This is more of a diary to me. A daily journal. Some place I can organize my thoughts and my real feelings so that a week from now, a month from now, a year from now….I can look back and see how far I’ve come, or not. This is a spiritual, emotional, educational, life changing transformation. This isn’t an over night, go to bed one night and wake up the next morning quick fix. If I’m going to change for the better I’m going to have to take the necessary time to make changes and make sure they stick. I heard somewhere that in order for something new to become a habit – you must do it 17 times in a row. After the 17th time…it becomes a habit. So here is entry one on day one. 16 more to go. My point isn’t to write in complete sentences or to use appropriate grammar or punctuation. It’s a thoughts and feelings dump. My brain moves so much faster than I want it to and I don’t always form complete thoughts. It’s more of a skip from this to that to this again. It’s this constant barrage of just nothingness sometimes. It’s hard to discern real feelings about anything or anyone when its all just a bunch of half thoughts of nothingness on a regular basis.
I think the best way to tackle this is to divide everything in to groups or parts. The kids, the house and finances, my love life, my career